It’s 5am and I still haven’t slept yet. Why is it that the weeks go by slowly, yet the days go by so quickly? It’s been over 3 weeks since I’ve moved out of Adrian’s house. It feels like I just left yesterday, but it also feels like I’ve never even lived with him in … More Guessin’ and Depressin’.
I just got home from seeing Adrian again. It’s really starting to feel like we are equally using each other. Sadly, I guess I’m fine with that for now. I’m going to use him until Nate is here. Until then, I just can’t let go with Adrian. Eventually, it’s going to either escalate into something … More I’m Just a Twentysomething User.
Well, internet. I’ve still got myself into some shit. Nate has got his visa paperwork sorted, so it is guaranteed that he is coming here. Maybe sooner, rather than later. Next year is going to be such an adventure. I am so ready for this year to be over. I feel like I’ve wasted this … More Kittens & Loneliness.
Well, here I am again today with a bunch of shit to get off of my chest. I feel like a horrible human being, since I feel like I’m leading Adrian on. I’m leading him on in the aspect of the fact that I can’t stand to be alone right now. I will accept anyone’s … More I Hooked Up With Adrian.
Holy fuck. This is the first time I’m writing in here in almost a damn year, and this year is almost over with already. I can’t believe the crackhead situation was almost a fucking year ago in itself. Let me tell you, I’ve got a whole boatload of shit to say. In fact, I have … More Leaving Adrian & Reconnecting With my Soul Mate.
Well, who said nothing interesting can happen at home? Boy, have I got the story of the year for you. First off, let me begin by saying that since Christmas, I have been feeling more and more detached. I feel like I’m managing life from an out of body experience. My story begins yesterday, while … More Crackheads Terrorized Me From Outside my House. (You read that right.)
Well, Christmas was fine. It definitely did not feel like Christmas at all. It’s starting to become a hard holiday to celebrate because of my family bullshit. Life feels like it’s at such a standstill. Everyday feels like it’s the same. Money is not a solution. Adrian making more money won’t mean anything until we … More Money Won’t Bring Happiness.
Well, I guess I have resorted to writing in here once again. My life is about to be way more boring, since I don’t really go out and put myself in any juicy situations. I am back to not sleeping very much/very well, and it’s killing me because I just hate being by myself. I … More Decisions Must Be Made.
Wow. I’ve realized that it has been exactly 6 months since I’ve posted, and man, SO much has changed. I keep avoiding this blog because I’m just too much of a little bitch to come to terms with my feelings. I think it’s what I need, though. So, in the last 6 months, I have: … More The Good and the Bad.
Good day, internet. I’ve been avoiding this blog like the plague, but I’m starting to think it’s the only thing that may save me at this point. I feel like I’m losing myself, like I have nothing left. I’m starting to question if Adrian is good for me. I really am beginning to hate the … More I Need Help.
Tales of a Sociopath. 